So yesterday went by quickly whereas today dragged on. And I effed up big time at work. I noticed my mistake I made at the end of the day, had to stay late and discuss with a manager and still have to deal with it tomorrow. Plus I found some more issues with an account after I spoke with a manager and will have to figure that out as well tomorrow. I have a huge knot in my stomach since I will have to face more of this crap tomorrow and am not really looking forward to it. I know it’s not the end of the world but I hate that I don’t know what I’m doing with my role and am not confident of my abilities. The sun will come up tomorrow and the day after but I hate this feeling of dreading going into work.
Just once, I would like to have a job that I acted liked and was semi passionate about. I hate waking up at 630A each morning, dreading the day and counting down the hours til 5 o’clock. I hate that I feel sick any time I’m about to call a customer with bad news. I hate that I work for a bank yet hate numbers. I hate that I’m too empathetic to do my job whereas other people are fine with practically driving customers to file for bankruptcy. I hate that my job (and former job) mentally exhausts me so much and has made me so bitter that I don’t have the energy to look for a relationship yet maintain one. I hate that I work for a corporation I don’t believe in. I hate that due to most of my experience within the bank, I can’t find anything else, even though I have a degree in journalism. I hate that I’m seriously considering withdrawing some of my 401K to live on for awhile so I can figure out what I want to do to with my life. I would just like to wake up Monday-Friday looking forward to something and not be completely miserable, I don’t think that’s asking for too much right? And huge brownie points for anyone who knows where the title of this post is from.
My package of goodies I ordered last week from Sephora arriving at my door step didn’t even lift my spirits. Retail therapy, makeup and a surprise package in one? Nope, didn’t even form a smile while opening so yeah, today wasn’t the best day.
Thank god I had a dinner plan in mind because I couldn’t handle another funky meal like last night. Since I am an emotional eater and all, I really wanted to just order take out and enjoy an insane amount of MSG from the local Chinese takeout joint but I stuck to my original plan–crescent rolls stuffed with onion and chive cream cheese and sandwich steak.
I cooked up the steak on the stovetop and seasoned with Spike seasoning. I didn’t even use oil or butter, the seasoning was the perfect thing to season with.
Then cut into little strips. Of course Lincoln got the leftovers.
I rolled out the crescent rolls to stretch them a little further than normal then spread cream cheese on them
Topped with steak bits
Then rolled up and let bake at 375 for 14 minutes.
I had broccoli on the side with a touch of spray butter and bam–quick, savory meal to end a horrid day.
Anyways, that was my day in a nutshell. Sorry if it was a bit of a downer but nothing wrong with some honesty right?
On a happier note—the winner of the Chobani giveaway is…….
Comment #13—Emily from “A Nutrionalist Eats”
emily (a nutritionist eats) December 16, 2010 “I’m liking chobani on facebook!”
I’m going to zone out to Family Guy and get some puppy kisses from my little guy.
Hope everyone’s Tuesday was better than mine!