So I smile

Wow, we have some ball lovers up in this piece huh? I love it. As Monique commented, all I could think about while making the balls was the Schweddy balls skit from SNL

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Today was a great day. Mostly because they announced my resignation at work so I am free and clear to tell people I am leaving. Some people on my team already knew about my departure but there were some who were kept in the dark about it since I’m not too close to them. I also found out that there are two other people on our team leaving so there is going to be a lot of work spread across the remainder of the team. I am trying to do as much as I can before I leave because I don’t want some of my friends to get my accounts that I did absolutely nothing on and have them do all the work that I should have. I’m good like that.

I was sitting at my desk after lunch and started to get a flutter in my stomach. I thought it was a bit off since I had a huge lunch of leftover stir fry

But then I sat back and thought why was my stomach feeling that way? I got up from my desk and took a walk outside and I was so happy I decided to do so since it was absolutely gorgeous out. And then something odd happened, I smiled. It’s been a long time since I smiled for no reason and it’s all because of the possibilities that are coming my way from leaving my job. No longer will I feel restrained by my job and feel like I am going nowhere. No longer will I not want to get out of bed in the morning. No longer will I dread each and every day and that I am slowly wasting my life away. No longer will I have huge bags under my eyes and people telling me how tired I look like the past month or two (I hope at least!) I am starting to feel good about everything that is going on, even if it means instability and not knowing where I am going to be in three months. A few of the guys on my team told me they are envious of me picking up and leaving since they have other obligations such as family, mortgage, etc. Not that there is anything wrong with that but I have felt stuck at company and in this city for too long. For some reason, I felt obligated to just go in and out every day to work, bust my hump and repeat and be unhappy. I’m happy something inside of me finally awoke and gave me a message that it’s time to live and not just exist! At first I wasn’t so sure about my decision but I starting to feel more and more confident about my decision and myself as the days pass. So I smiled…..and I smiled the rest of the day!

Hell, my dinner even made me smile. I didn’t have a meal planned so went to my standby of Mexican food and made quesadillas. I didn’t have any cooked chicken on hand and was so lazy I didn’t feel like opening a can of beans but soon I found my secret ingredient.

Steak.

I went to BLT Steak at the Ritz Carlton on Monday night, which that night deserves a post of its own since it involved beers, peach mojitos, a $300 bottle of wine and yeah, The Ritz Carlton. For a girl who does Frugal Friday every week, going to the Ritz is major! I got the Hanger steak and had a few bites leftover and when a steak goes for $26 , you can bet your bottom dollar I am taking those last few bites home! I cut up the steak and placed on top of the jalapeno, onion and cheese mixture

I had the quesadillas with a side of blue corn tortilla chips sprinkled with Tabasco sauce.

Apparently I either need to A) Go to the Ritz more often for steak or B) Add steak to my quesadillas because these were ammmmmazing! I think option B) will be more feasible for me in the future. Unless I find a sugar daddy and with the way the dating scene is looking lately, that is not happening.

I had a stellar dessert soon after-a smoothie with blackberries, almond milk, flax-seed, Spiru-tein Blueberries & Cream protein powder and *finally* chia seeds!

Totally feel like I’m supporting the Lakers with that smoothie! I was stoked to get a package of chia seeds in the mail today. I’ve seen much hype about them in the blog world and there was a post on Carrots N Cake about them today so I felt compelled to try them at once. I added them while blending the smoothie in my Magic Bullet so that weren’t whole but a seedy texture afterwards. The smoothie didn’t taste gritty or seed-like yet it was still tasty and packed with benefits-score!

What made you smile today? Thoughts of leaving my job definitely did along with this guy