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I wanna molest your face

3 Mar

That is what a homeless man told me when I was walking to the bus this afternoon. As if I wasn’t having a bad enough day as is.

Ummm thank you? I walk with my headphones on just so people won’t bother me but don’t have music playing alot of the time for safety reasons. This dude though stopped me to tell that he wanted to molest my face and I just looked at him, smiled and pranced away. It must be my new Benefit makeup I got this wknd!

And then I came home to a refridgerator that wasn’t working.

And then Lincoln almost got into some chocolate.

UGH! But it got better soon after!

I’ll start with my food from earlier today:

I didn’t have my normal breakfast of oats, granola or yogurt. I had leftovers of eggs, mushrooms, onions, veggie crumbles and spinach from BFD last night so nuked that and put it on a Trader Joe’s Habenero Lime tortilla with ketchup.

Holy yum! I’ve always been skeeved my reheating eggs but it didn’t taste funky at all.

The snacks

Lunch was chicken cakes and carrot and parsley salad

My afternoon snackage was a Clif Cool Mint Chocolate Bar—which really was refreshing and cool mint. Yay for no false advertising!

 

Fast forward to getting home to a dog wanting to try out chocolate and fridge not working. After that happened, I sat on my floor and wanted to cry after todays events but I just couldn’t. I don’t what was going on but I somehow knew that I would be ok. I can’t really explain it. Thanks everyone for your kind words….I need to figure out a way to go over this with my supervisor the next time I have a review. By that I mean, in a way where I don’t start dropping the F bomb or crying out of frustration!

I decided to make  the one thing that always makes me feel better —homemade pizza with Trader Joe’s Whole Wheat Pizza Dough!

The veggies cooking

I bought  Smart Deli Pepperoni Style Veggie Protein Slices awhile back and have been meaning to try

The pizza dough—which isn’t in a funky shape for once!

I used Trader Joe’s Traditional Marina Sauce

Sadly had no cheese though 😦

I snacked on these babies while the pizza was cooking

Fresh outta the oven!

I made up for my lack o’ dairy….I tried Trader Joe’s 4% Milkfat Cottage Cheese for a snack. Thumbs down.  I didn’t like the texture at  all, it was too chunky and creamy for my taste. I don’t add anything to my cottage cheese-I enjoy the flavor on its own and don’t know how people add fruit to it! I normally get the generic brand at the supermarket and will stick to that from now on.

I decided to go for a run tonight to get some frustration from the day out. I must have thought it was alot warmer than it was because it was freezing out! I don’t know if it’s because I didn’t wear my gloves (which I didn’t tonight because I get sweaty and it feels gross) but holy hell, it was bad out. I only did about 2 miles but it felt good to get out there! And I got a few car honks while doing so lol

I came home and made a green monster but with something new—Kefir!

 I’ve never had this before but have seen it on Stephanie’s site so thought I would give it a whirl!

I added a couple of oz of soy milk, ice cubes, baby spinach and chocolate whey to make this beauty

Thoughts on Kefir? Absolutely loved it! It was thick and creamy, just like using greek yogurt in a smoothie. And the strawberry flavor was really smooth and went well with the chocolate whey.

 And I’m spent. Im going to relax in the buble then lounge for the rest of the night—hope y’all had a happy hump day 🙂

Frustation Station

3 Mar

So frustrated right now! I have been with my company a good five years. I am a hard worker, go above and beyond and just rock if we are being honest. However, everyone on my team who has started after me has moved on to other position while I am still stuck here. I have applied for numerous positions within the bank and nothing. I get to a second or third interview and when I ask the recruiter if there is anything I could have done better or work on, they have responded with things such as “No, you were great!” “They loved your personality and you have a lot of experience “ or “They are going with someone with more experience”

 

My question: How the hell am I supposed to get more experience if no one will let me get experience? I feel like I am in a vicious circle that I can’t get out of and don’t know what to do. I found out another girl on my team will be leaving in a few weeks and some of the closers I work with all got title promotions. Basically, it is a corporate title within the bank that you earn through experience, hard work, etc. I am coming up on my fifth year this April and by this time, my goal was to have an AVP title but no can do. Some people who are in this department have been here 10 yrs (which if that’s the case, I will go work at Starbucks instead) and still don’t have that. But these closers who from what I can see, don’t really work that hard….ALL got this promotion.

 

I really don’t know what to do. I am so frustrated and I can’t do anything. I don’t have a sugar daddy, parents with strong financials or a winning lottery ticket. I work hard and work overtime each week so I can add to my savings acct that is strictly for moving but how am I supposed to be able to move or find a job with this horrible economy? I feel stuck and I do not like it all. I wake up every day in a worse mood than the day before, am unhappy and just not myself.

 

Sorry to be a downer but I need to vent!!